Mushroom trip #1
Alright...so what is this Spiritual Journey you are on, Lex? How did you start? Well, let's take it back to October of 2020..
On October 7th, 2020, I finally hit the "dreaded" age of 30 as people in their mid-20s would describe it, for I saw it as hella old too in my 20s lol. But... turning 30 was freakin awesome. I feel like I am finally figuring out who I really am and it really is a wonderful feeling. As I turned 30, I wanted to try Magic Mushrooms because why not? I watched the documentary "Have a Good Trip" on Netflix a few weeks before my first trip, and found myself so fascinated by the stories these celebrities told. Some were hilarious but some were pretty horrifying! I honestly had no idea what I would be feeling and that feeling alone was exciting. I usually hate the unknown but I swear, something happens after you turn 30. You get this new unknown superpower...I have no idea how to explain it but hopefully, some of you know what I'm talking about. Anywhoo...
A couple of weeks after I turned 30, I finally got my hands on some Shroomies and began my journey. I took about 3 grams of dried mushrooms with my boyfriend and away we went. We put on our galaxy light, a movie, and just sat on our couch. Again, I had NO IDEA how/when it would kick in, what I would feel, and didn't want my bf to judge me so I was starting to get a little bit of anxiety. I knew I started to feel a little different so I looked over at my bf and he looked a bit uncomfortable. I took a deep breath and I just told him something along the lines of "I think I'm feeling something, but please know that I will not judge you". After I said that, the energy changed and we both dove in 100% to our first shroom trip.
We started crackin' up, trying to explain to each other how we were feeling, but could not because when you are tripping on Shrooms, it's a little hard to talk in my opinion. My bf decided to go upstairs for whatever reason and I decided to turn on my camera and hit record lol. After about 5 min alone downstairs, I started to feel like someone was watching me and started panicking. I'm sure yall reading this are like "Hello...your camera" but my high ass was not that smart in that particular moment. I saw the camera and started laughing, having that duh moment. Looking into my camera screen was like seeing my world from another point of view, and after I looked into that camera screen, something "awakened" in me.
While my boyfriend was upstairs, I realized how much he meant to me. Side Note We have been together for 8 years, and with 8 years comes the waves of highs and lows. If I'm being honest, I questioned if he was right for me after so many years. I won't get into much detail, but there wasn't a lot of spark happening between us in the last 2-4 years.**** I realized how relationships are absolutely beautiful. You choose who you get involved with, and when you choose to go through life together, it's so special... especially when you finally value the damn relationship. I realized we are both on our own journeys and growing up as individuals but also keeping each other grounded and sane. After realizing that Chris (my bf lol-I realized I never introduced him) is truly my person, I realized that everything happens for a damn reason and that people don't just say that. It REALLY does happen for a reason, and we are all connected (I believe I said this about 50x that night because I was so mind blown what I figured out lol).
On top of the moving walls & breathing windows, I was told that everything is ok, and will be ok. I was shown that my problems and issues are not ones to stress about. I have a group of supportive friends and have the best boyfriend to guide me through my bad days. Although I realized a lot, I did see a lot of "evil" lurking around. But that is what our world is at the moment....good mixed with evil. I am lucky I know how to navigate my way around the evil and darkness. I accept that it's there but will not succumb to it. I am not sure if the shadows and evil were because I was "high", for I have always been a bit sensitive to the supernatural, but that's another story for another time.
Wow, I am just typing and typing. This is a long one! I will post pictures of some notes I took the day after my 1st Trip...but hopefully, you enjoyed this mini intro to my spiritual journey. This was the start of me doing inner work, and this was the start of me actually feeling at peace within myself. It was beautiful and I am still on a high from it!
As always, please research and proceed with caution when taking shrooms (or any type of drug!)
