2 Months…

...left of the year.

wowza.

Let's see where I'm at shall we?

I'm still working hard behind the scenes, but I finally found a change in my daily thought pattern. My ass was interrupted from my daily re-programming & I was able to catch it haha. I have no idea how to explain it just yet, but I am now wondering what the "next step" in my journey will be, and brainstorming what MORE I can do in my daily routines.

The past 3 months have been a ton of mental work. shadow work. inner work. lexi work. I feel like I have made some phenomenal progress, even I am mind blown at how far I've come since the beginning of the year. I have prepped my mind, body, & soul to take on the next few months/years of my life. I am ready, and I am so excited.

Time has been moving in such a strange way for me. It's like it slows down at night and speeds up during the day? October felt like it was a month and a half longgggg. I'm happy it felt that way to be honest, for it was a magical month with many lessons learned. I cut open some deep wounds, but I know that cut is going to heal over time (probably going to get a bit infected, but I'll take care of it lol).

I had social anxiety for the first time (that I was aware of). It was my best friend's bachelorette gathering and I just could not pull myself together. I was ok, but definitely in my head the whole night. I believe being on the strip did not help me either, for it was a lot of funky energy. The same night, Chris's car got stolen from his work.

I started posting on TikTok more and I have a love/hate with it. I can't wait until I am past this weird social media phase. I am also trying to rethink on how I want to post on Instagram so it could be more "real" and true to who I am. I want to make sure I am documenting my story as accurate as possible. I don't want to post trendy shit, I want to be real. We need more realness on the internet. We have more work to be done.

Chris has been working hard in school, and it's inspiring. He makes me want to work harder and do better. He's going to do big thangs, and I can't wait to watch him bloom even more. His life perspective has also kept me on my toes and always sends me in a damn spiral, forever challenging my views and ideas. I frickin' love it.

Continued with my endless research on "life". Had many intellectual conversations with Chris, and even got lucky and threw in some friends in there. Talking about philosophy and the unknown truly make my heart happy. On top of these convos, there was also strange activity, dreams, and energy throughout October. Astral projecting & lucid dreaming are the newly added chapters in my book. Once I understand it more, I will talk/write about it. The icing on the cake was my best friend's house warming. The overall energy of the gathering felt yucky and stuck on me on the whole ride home. I had to sage myself and shake it off lol (the house itself was beautiful and I loved it, nothing against the owners of the home!-it was the chaotic energy people brought in that was yucky).

I am attracting the people and energy that I deserve, but I also know how to set up a boundary when needed. & that shit will go up quick if I feel any weird intentions from someone. It's getting so much easier to navigate this "3D World" (so they call it), & I am ready to continue this human experience. Continuing to learn, be open, listen, educate, love, laugh, cry, & heal.

I can say that right now, I am truly happy. I'm seeing easier days. I'm pulling myself out of tough spots quicker. I am learning duality & balance. I feel lighter, physically and mentally. I find myself smiling more. Gosh, those are just some of the things I'm choosing to share, but although things aren't nowhere near perfect, it's perfect for right NOW.

Ok... it's 2:33am.

I should probably get to bed.

Goodnight World. I'll "see you" in a bit.

Love you.