who do you turn to?
When you are in a slump, where do you seek guidance from? Do you even want advice? Who do you trust to give you advice? Do you even listen to the advice given to you? These are the thoughts clogging my mind at the moment...so let's blog about it!
I always felt like I gave bomb advice, but I often wondered why I did not follow my own advice? Do I not trust myself? If I don't trust myself, why am I giving any advice to anyone? I had to sit what that thought and figure out why I just didn't turn to myself to help me with my situations. How do I follow my own advice? And when do I reach out to external factors to help?
"Do I not trust myself?"
hmm. That's a tough question, but in all honesty, I am starting to break down that wall and really see me for who I am. I want to say that I am beginning to trust myself. If I was to ask myself this 2 years ago I would say yes, but deep down.... hell no. I have stopped hanging out with people every weekend, I have been alone most of my free time, trying to stay off my phone when I feel like reaching for it, and really sitting with this Lexi person. For the most part, I really enjoy my own company. That may sound so high and mighty to most, but in order to be the best person for all of my personal relationships, I need to love and trust myself. Period. Proud of this growth in me, but I know I will forever be work in progress.
When you are almost rock bottom, who do you turn to?
You know that feeling, when you feel so heavy and hot in the chest and feel like you want to scream or explode. What do you do in those situations? Exercise? Take a walk? Draw? Dance? All those things are amazing at "calming you down", but you know deep down that we need to get those words out. I would typically turn to my best friends or Chris, but how do you explain in nutshell a deeply personal situation that only YOU know all the juicy details about? Again, words matter, so if you don't explain your story the way you want to get your point across, it can get twisted. Or the person hearing your situation may not understand completely, so you won't get the advice you are seeking. You are ultimately taking a risk when you seek advice...at least that's how I see it. Try turning to yourself next time and see what happens. Talk out loud, write, listen to music to help you find the words. You'll know once you come up with a "solution", and I write that in quotes because it might not be solved, but it might help you feel better. After you seek out your own advice and feel like you made some great progress, then go seek out a chat with one of your close friends/family members. Although I believe we can give ourselves the advice we want, it's also healthy to talk about it with people you trust. But turn to YOUrself first <3
Where am I going with this blog and who am I even talking to...lol who cares, it's mine anyway.
I believe that we have all the answers within us. It's just up to us to unlock those answers throughout our life journey. Ever since I started taking Magic Mushrooms regularly, I have been journaling a lot. I'm that crazy person who is starting to recognize the different voices in her head, which are all the different versions of me to be honest lol. When I look back at my thoughts, I learn a lot! They confirm a lot of things I've been unsure about, but now it's just remembering to implement them into the Present. Something I started doing is remembering my advice given to myself on Magic Mushrooms, and really trusting in those words. I believed in them in that moment of time, so I need to trust that version of me who allowed to receive those words of advice/wisdom. The only problem I have is that my notes and journaling is ALL. OVER. THE PLACE. I need a way to organize them because there's a lot of shit I write down. Does anyone have any recommendations for that? I would like to get better at organizing my notes, but it's just so overwhelming to me.
Alright I don't have anymore writing juice...I'll have to get back to this later. I still have things I want to talk about that bug me about people giving advice and people who want advice but never follow. I'm just not in the mood to get that deep now haha.
TO BE CONTINUED...Much love to you all!
